I am approaching the nine-year anniversary of my divorce — which comes just three days after what would have been the 21st anniversary of my marriage. I don’t actually mark the time (we don’t want to dwell in the past, do we?) but inevitably, sometime during the month of October each year, I will remember that these anniversaries are coming up; and it occurred to me that I should share what I’ve learned both during my marriage and in the years since (because hindsight is, after all, 20/20).
Most of what I know comes from my own marriage and mistakes that were made; but some of what I know comes from observing others’ marriages, both successful and unsuccessful (in other words, these don’t all apply to my marriage unless specifically noted).
In no particular order, here is the first part of a two-part series on the 14 things I’ve learned about marriage:
1. Don’t mistake compatibility for ease. Just because you’re very compatible doesn’t mean your marriage is effortless. It’s not. You still have to work at it. We were so compatible that ours seemed so easy, which contributed to our undoing. I think couples that are actually less compatible may have more successful marriages because they learn to work at compromise and resolving conflict. We never learned that, so when we needed those skills, we didn’t have them.
2. Don’t lose your identity. As compatible as we seemed to be, it became increasingly clear over time that my ex-husband and I are very different people. As it turns out, we have very different views on child-rearing, politics, religion, nutrition, just about everything. Part of this is due to me finally becoming the person I was meant to be, which was an evolutionary process (most of which occurred after we divorced), while he stayed pretty much the way he has always been.
While compromise in a relationship is necessary, you need to be true to yourself first. Don’t lose your identity. Don’t give up too much of yourself because that’s what is required to stay in the relationship. Don’t quench the fire that burns within you for whatever your passion is just because your partner wouldn’t understand or agree with you. They should know who you are and all that goes with it when they marry you. And it’s up to you to make sure they do.
3. Marriage is not a license to change the other person. If your partner married you knowing who you truly are, they shouldn’t expect marriage to suddenly and magically change you into someone else who better suits them. Marriage is not meant to be a mold for changing people. If you were honest about who you are before you were married, you shouldn’t change into someone else immediately after marriage. And your spouse should expect you to be the same person they knew before they married you, not someone else they hoped you would turn into. I know a man who confessed to me that he married his wife because she was young and he could “mold” her. That was a one-sided marriage if ever I saw one.
4. Love means wanting what is best for the other person, even if that’s not what’s best for you. True love means supporting your spouse, even if that takes them in a direction you wouldn’t have wanted. For example, what if your spouse decides to run for political office, which will put your family in the public spotlight? What if your spouse’s promotion means you have to move to Hong Kong for two years? What if your spouse wants to quit their job and start their own business? These are difficult decisions and could be unwanted changes in your life.
Love also means that sometimes what is best for the other person is for you to split up, because you know they will be unhappy if you stay together. Sometimes what is best for the other person is to let them go, regardless of how much it hurts you.
5. Don’t abandon your own interests. I see couples who go off and do their own thing from time to time — the wife has a girls’ weekend or the husband has a hunting weekend, or both. These are good and healthy things, especially if you feel you need the break from each other. As the saying goes, “How can I miss you if you won’t go away?” A short break from each other can be renewing for the relationship.
Other couples are never apart. They do everything together or they don’t go at all. You have to find the right balance for you and for your marriage. Too much hanging out at the bar with the guys without the wife won’t work and is disrespectful to the relationship; the same goes for too many girls’ nights out without the husband. You need time apart (if you desire it) and time together.
You also need time with other people — other couples, groups of friends, your families. Not long into our marriage we moved away from everyone we knew, so we weren’t able to get together with our friends like we could have otherwise. Our relationship would have benefitted from that. Instead, we only had each other for company, and we got stuck in a routine which contributed to “marriage boredom.”
6. Don’t be selfish. Love is about putting someone else’s needs above your own, and doing so gladly. While everyone needs time to themselves and time to do their own thing, it should not be at the expense or to the detriment of the other person. As in all things, there must be balance.
In my own marriage, there were times I acted selfishly, not from taking time to do my own thing, just from being, well, selfish. I understand where that behavior came from, but I don’t wish to see that in myself again. There are some “do-overs” I wish I could have had. Just because someone allows you to take advantage of them out of love doesn’t mean you should.
7. Marriage is not a guarantee. We tend to interpret marriage as being some kind of guarantee that our spouses will always stay the same people they were when we married them and that they have to always love us no matter what. Marriage is no guarantee of anything. It’s a promise to stay together; nothing more. I know some marriages crumble because a person changes during the marriage. Even when a change is for the better (like turning from alcohol to religion) it can be stressful on a marriage, not to mention the changes for the worse.
No one can promise not to change as they go through life. We are constantly evolving, and sometimes we grow apart as a result of that process. That is a natural part of life, not something in which to find blame.
And as for loving someone eternally…that love has to be earned, even after marriage. After all, you earned it in the first place by cultivating it when you were dating. There is nothing magical about a marriage license. It will not guarantee your spouse’s love if you disparage, abuse, or ignore them.
My next post will have 7 more things I’ve learned about marriage.
Please add your comments on this — either what you learned in your own relationships by your mistakes, or words of advice if you are successfully married.
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